Sometimes life sucks..

I have been having a really hard time lately just dealing with life. I did really bad on my midterms, worse than I’ve ever done in my life so that brought me down a bit. And I was sick the entire week of midterms so I just felt awful. I’m so torn between staying in school as a Veterinary Technician and just quitting before I get too far into it. I don’t know what to do. And it’s so expensive so I have to work a lot just to pay for it which is also stressful. And the only person I want to talk to about it is my mom :(. Her and my grandma have been on my mind a lot lately. She wasn’t always there for me but when she was I could always talk to her.. I miss that. I miss how she knew exactly what I was feeling and knew how to help. I tried asking my dad for advice and his only advice was to not work as much, which isn’t really an option and then he just stopped replying to me.. My mom would always try to help as much as she could. I just wish I had that again. I wish I could hug her and tell her how much I love her.. I wish I would have spent more time with her while she was around.. Towards the end we weren’t really that close and I wish we would have been. I wish I would have tried to help her more. Just after years and years of dealing with her alcoholism it got to hard to keep putting myself out there just to get hurt again.. But at this point it would have been worth it to be hurt but at least I would have had a little more time with her.
So.. That’s my life right now. I feel pretty shitty. I can’t wait for this semester to be done.

Something I can’t stand…

I don’t care if you’re religious but don’t use your religion to hurt others. This ladies dog died and she said it’s okay I’ll see him again in heaven and my cousins fiancé says to her “dogs don’t have souls so no you wont”. Seriously? That’s so rude. Even if that is what you believe you shouldn’t say that to someone grieving over a pet. Isn’t part of Christianity being kind and compassionate towards others? Way to often I see people who claim to be Christian be mean to others. I am not religious and I will never judge others for being religious just be nice to people it’s not that hard.